Come Out of Your Closet!

I started today with five cats. by 2:30 this afternoon I was informed that we had found our cat Camina under our camper dead. She was hit by a car.
Over the past few weeks I have been empty and hiding my emotions inside a locked trunk in my heart. Because I did not want to deal with my emotions and the reality of my grandmothers death.
Tonight my heart is aching. but it is full.
I have been seeking for Jesus these past weeks wondering why I do not feel his presence. I have been closing most of my doors to Him, and have been letting Him stand in the entry way waiting for me to come out from my hiding place in the closet.
I am still deeply saddened by the deaths of my grandmother and my cat. (and also the many sheep we have lost both today and over the past months). But. Even though I am crying, and hurting, over these things, I am at peace because God is in control. and He loves me, and the people and animals a things I love, and He cherishes them and He mourns with me for my pain, and rejoices with them for their return.
God is with You always. Let Him rejoice and cry with You. Come out of your closet. stop hiding and cry in His arms.