What am I?
Why am I?
Many times I have asked myself different forms of these questions; Who am I supposed to be? What am I supposed to do? What is my purpose? Why do I exist? What is the point to my existence? Although these questions are not exactly the same, they all root from those first three questions. Who am I, what am I, and why am I.
Where do these questions come from? It varies for everyone, but here are a few sources; Societies/Medias' portrayal of the perfect woman, or man. The words people say about you. The way you are treated. How you feel about your actions. How others feel about your actions. What you would like to be, vs. what you think you are.
Now, I know I've given quite a few examples here, but let me give the examples.
societies portrayal of the perfect woman or man. This can bring up all three of those questions. "Who am I compared to that woman/man", "Why don't I look/act like that" or even "Why can't I look/act like that", "What am I worth. Those people look, act, and seem perfect. I'm just a big, fat, ugly, blob who can't even remember what I did yesterday! I'm no where close to where I should be."
the way you are treated; "what did I do wrong?", "Why am I being treated this way when I'm trying so hard to be nice and forgiving to them?", "Why did they stop talking to me?", "Why do they hate me?"
How you feel about your actions; "Why can't I just turn the other cheek?", "Why am I letting them treat me this way?", "What did I do wrong.", "Why do I feel hurt when it's all my fault?"
do you follow all of those why questions with a "I must have done something terrible, but I thought I was being so nice." or a "I can't say anything because it's my fault anyway." or even a "I shouldn't be hurt/angry because it's my fault they're being mean."
First, ask yourself "What is wrong with this picture?"
Now, ask yourself "Do I think this way about myself or someone else?"
Well if you do think this way, let me be the first to say "Welcome to the club!"
Let me also be the first to say, "let's put an expiration date on that club membership shall we?"
Now I have to say that I do not know whether you are in the wrong or not. But I can tell you that if someone's words or actions are hurtful, and even possibly are using you. Then there is something seriously wrong. You may have played a part in the way they treat you, however, as Christians we are supposed to go to each other and discuss, resolve, forgive, and change the hurtful ways we act and things we say. You must make the first step; take it to the Lord and examine the situation before Him. THEN you can talk to the other person.
ok, now back to the main subject.
What you would like to be vs. what you think you are; Now the phrase "what you think you are" is very important. You are probably a lot closer to what you would like to be than what you think;
Do you want to be there for people, and/or help them but feel it's useless to try? Do you want to thin and beautiful, but think you are overweight and ugly? Do you want to have a long-lasting friendship, but think you are not worth it?
As your sister in Christ I am here to tell you;
you are beautiful.
your efforts are not useless
you are worth it
you are a priceless treasure
you are perfect you are more beautiful each day
you have been declared perfect
you are declared righteous
you are forgiven
God has called you "beloved"
YOU ARE NOT DEFINED BY THE MEDIA, SIN, HURT, ANGER, BITTERNESS, SHORTCOMINGS, FAILURES, WORDS, ACTIONS, ANYTHING IN OR OF THIS WORLD.
YOU ARE NOT any of those things.
