AH HAHAHAHHA! Shopping shopping shopping!
I love shopping! it is SO much fun! especially since I'm getting things for the poeple I love! it makes me SO gleefull!!!!!
^_^
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Christmas!!!
Christmas is upon us! And so is exhaustion!
School has as much homework as usual, and I have as little sleep as usual...
However! Christmas is upon us! (as I said before) and decorations are going up!!! (I LOVE decorations!!!!) And everything looks so pretty!!!! I played at the Christmas Symphony Guild Walk on Sunday and, in case you don't know, the C.S.G.W is basically an exquisitally decorated house with music played in it! I had the pleasure of playing in one of the houses and afterward I got to look around the house! It was SO PRETTY! I didn't so much admire the decorations, because it was decorated in my style and I probably could have done the same thing with those decorations. It just wasn't that pretty to me. But it was held in a gorgeous home! I loved walking around that house while it was filled with pretty decorations! I really enjoyed it! And then the next morning while I was on my way to school some of the houses I passed had their lights on and they were covered in frost! It was GORGEOUS! I love christmas! ...even if it does bring TONS of huge homework deadlines... sleepy
Monday, November 28, 2011
Thanksgiving!!!
Thanksgiving! A day of giving thanks to our creator that led us safely to the new land, gave us food to grow, and the indians to teach us! A day of Joy! No stress! and Love!!! .....ok maybe not the no stress. but definitely love!
This Thanksgiving day I woke up around 6-ish, finished packing my clothes for travel, and headed off for Medford! Medford, if you didn't know, is a 2.5-3.5 hour drive from Eugene Oregon. We arrived around 12:30 we were the first ones there! My family and I, went up to spend Thanksgiving with my mothers sid eof the family. two of my aunts, and one of my uncles were there, and my AWESOME cousin David, and his brother Jason. :)
\Thanksgiving dinner did not begin until around 2:30 when everyone FINALLY arrived, we sat down to Thanksgiving dinner! afterwards there was HOURS of singing and music!!! Friday we headed home at 2-ish! :)
This Thanksgiving day I woke up around 6-ish, finished packing my clothes for travel, and headed off for Medford! Medford, if you didn't know, is a 2.5-3.5 hour drive from Eugene Oregon. We arrived around 12:30 we were the first ones there! My family and I, went up to spend Thanksgiving with my mothers sid eof the family. two of my aunts, and one of my uncles were there, and my AWESOME cousin David, and his brother Jason. :)
\Thanksgiving dinner did not begin until around 2:30 when everyone FINALLY arrived, we sat down to Thanksgiving dinner! afterwards there was HOURS of singing and music!!! Friday we headed home at 2-ish! :)
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
To the World!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
I hope you have a happy day, filled with Gods grace and love!
I pray that you will blessed this day. And that God will be present in your heart and soul! I pray that He would give you peace and joy, and that you would glorify His name! And most of all I pray for you to have salvation in Christ Jesus!
John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life!"
(the world by the way, is YOU! and when He gave His son, it was a death sentence for His son. So you could live with Him for eternity!)
May God bless you, each and every day!
Have a grand day!
~ Lainns
I hope you have a happy day, filled with Gods grace and love!
I pray that you will blessed this day. And that God will be present in your heart and soul! I pray that He would give you peace and joy, and that you would glorify His name! And most of all I pray for you to have salvation in Christ Jesus!
John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life!"
(the world by the way, is YOU! and when He gave His son, it was a death sentence for His son. So you could live with Him for eternity!)
May God bless you, each and every day!
Have a grand day!
~ Lainns
Monday, November 21, 2011
My Tribute
Verse 1:
How Can I say Thanks,
For the things
you have done for me,
Things
so undeserved,
that you gave,
to show Your love for me.
The voices
of a million angels
could not express,
my gratitude.
All that I am,
and ever hope to be,
I give it all to Thee.
Chorus:
To God be the glory
To God be the glory,
To God be the glory,
For the things He has done.
With His blood, He has saved me
with His power He has raised.
To God be the glory
For the things He has done.
Verse 2:
Just let me live,
My life,
let it be pleasing unto Thee,
and if I gain any praise,
Let it go to Calvary
Chorus:
With His blood, He has saved me
with His power He has raised.
To God be the glory
For the things He has done.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Songs of Old
Have you ever just sat down and sang hymns?
Have you even read through the old hymns?
The words to those old hymns are full of history and wisdom!
One of my favorite hymns is It Is Well With My Soul!
If you haven't read or heard any old hymns find a hymnal! find a song! read it through and think about the words!
Have you even read through the old hymns?
The words to those old hymns are full of history and wisdom!
One of my favorite hymns is It Is Well With My Soul!
If you haven't read or heard any old hymns find a hymnal! find a song! read it through and think about the words!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Bible Verses to Remember! ^_^
Deuteronomy 6:5
"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength."
Psalm 46:1
"God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble."
John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever Believes in Him, would not, perish, but have everlasting life!"
"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength."
Psalm 46:1
"God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble."
John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever Believes in Him, would not, perish, but have everlasting life!"
Friday, November 4, 2011
Psalm 46: 1-7
God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
3 Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling.
4 There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
The holy place of the Tabernacle of the Mos High.
5 God is in the midst of her,
She shall not be moved;
God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
6 The nations raged,
The kingdoms were moved;
He uttered His voice,
The earth melted.
7 The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
The Battle Feild In Me
Over the past year I've struggled spiritually, and as this year has progressed, I've heard the phrase "it's a low! it will pass." countless times! Unfortunately things have just gotten worse, and worse. and. worse. A month ago, I reached a new low. And over the past year. I've been pretty darn low at times. And I've managed to go lower than the last time.
Over the past month, many things have happened, and I've been struggling with myself, and battling my mind, and my emotions, and what I want to believe, but don't think could apply to me. And I've discovered that I suck. at many, many things. And I fall-short, in many, many ways. And I fail. over and over. and over. and over. and over. again. I know, that people know, I fail. Some people make a point of saying so, and others tell me, "nice try, you'll get it next time". And something I've realised is that, for me, the shouts of criticism are louder than the voices of encouragement.
Every day. I wake up, I feel terrible, my body aches from an two year long injury, that affects my entire body. I wake up, and I do not want to move. I wake up, and I feel like the scum of the earth. I wake up. and I feel forsaken. and then, I lay there. unable to move. and I just lay there. and then....I start listening to my alarm. Which is K-Love. (Which just happens to be the only radio station that won't be static on my radio.) Every morning like clockwork my alarm goes off, and they're playing a song, that either touches my heart, makes me cry, or reminds me, that I'm not alone. And that. is the only reason I can move in the morning. Because I'm reminded that I'm not alone. God is with me, and I still have at least a tiny bit of love from a few people out there. which means. God actually loves me! cause if they can love me. the fallen, judgemental people of the world! If they can love me, genuinely love me. Then as sure as the sun comes up in the morning God can love me! (referenced: Unfathomable Love -October section -this blog) So every morning. I have some amount of hope...sort of...
A few weeks ago. I couldn't even think about even trying to believe that God loves me. That was out of the question. Because I felt more forsaken then I ever had in my life. I felt more useless, and more like a failure than I ever had in my life. I. Had. No. Worth. .... to myself. I was worthless to myself. I had no reason to believe that God, or anybody could love me. Because. my entire life, people have gotten to know me and ditched me. and it "happened" (sort of. it made me feel like they were ditching. we just have some fun boundaries....blech.) for I don't know the how-manyeth-time, in October.
But. then. a couple weeks ago, that friend said "hey, you wanna come to youth group with me and my sister?" so I said sure. And that's when God started to say "hey! I love you! I love you! I love you." That night when I was at youth-group with my friend, I bawled, almost the entire time! I couldn't believe that He loved me, and I had had such a hard time believing that, for so many years, that, when God said that. it was just like a 50 ton hug gets dropped on you! they are SO nice, but they're heavy too!
God was standing there. right next to me. the whole time I was hurting. He was there, my entire life, every time I was hurting, and every time when I wasn't too! He was there while I was hurting that terrible Friday night four years ago! God was sitting there with me when I was on the phone a Sunday night in January, three years ago, God was there, when someone I love, ditched me, in the most painful way they could have at the time. He. was. There. and He has been there, here, with me. with you. whoever is reading this! whoever is not reading this! He's been with you your entire life! saying to you "I love you! I love you so much I died for you! and I would do it again, in less than a heart beat!" Jesus is right there with you now! whether you're Christian or not! He. is THERE! right now with you! asking for you to come into His arms and pour out your troubles on Him! asking for you to lean on Him, to give your love, and your life to Him. So He can let you know, so He can show you, just. How. Much. He loves you!
two weeks ago now, my sister in law, was talking to me. I was sitting in an office bawling. again. And she was sitting there. trying to let me know that she loved me. And when I eventually told her that I don't feel like I'm worth anything, and that I don't feel like I can be loved. She ended up talking about how much I'm worth. not just to her but to other people. And. I started crying harder. That day I was struggling even more than usual to believe that God does love me. And God was knockin' on my door again saying. "Heloo, I leave you love notes? hmm?"
Over the past two weeks I've been getting better at believing that God really does love me and I'm not just a person He accidentally created without any thought. I've been able to start healing a little bit, and I've been able to press into God more.
Something my older sister said yesterday, was "God is a single-woman's husband".
I struggle with not being loved, and honestly, if I was asked if I wanted a husband or a child, I would have to say yes. I do. I want them. more than I can say. especially a child. But when she said that. I thought of something my friend had said. "stop wishing for something you don't have, and be content with what you do have" And I put the two together and I thought. "wow. my thinking has been a bit off in that aspect. I've been searching for agape love. where I can not find it. I have it right in front of my face! and I've been blind!" and so that was just like a smack in the face. But, when I realised that, I put Jesus in that place in my heart. And you know what. that night was the first night I have rested when I slept in over a month. There was a peace there that I have been searching for since I was nine, maybe eight....I can't remember! But it was there. And I woke up the next morning. And I felt Jesus there. I knew He was there. And I knew I was safe. At least from a few certain things. And that feeling is so amazing! I can't even describe it!
I would like to say thank you to K-love, and all the sponsorers of K-love. you guys got me up in the morning. and you guys kept me from sliding into complete depression.
I would also like to thank the youth pastor at EPIC. (the youth group) for praying for me.
1Kings 19:7
"And the angle of the Lord came back a second time and touched him, and said, 'Arise and eat, because the journey is too great for you.' "
Right now that is me! I'm collapsed in the middle of nowhere! And the journey, has been, and is too great for me. ...alone.
Revelation 21:4
"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."
This is Gods promise to me! This is something I hang onto! Eventually, I won't have to deal with my emotional pain! I won't have to deal with my physical pain! and I won't feel sad! and I won't want to cry!
I don't know about you, but. I want that!
Over the past month, many things have happened, and I've been struggling with myself, and battling my mind, and my emotions, and what I want to believe, but don't think could apply to me. And I've discovered that I suck. at many, many things. And I fall-short, in many, many ways. And I fail. over and over. and over. and over. and over. again. I know, that people know, I fail. Some people make a point of saying so, and others tell me, "nice try, you'll get it next time". And something I've realised is that, for me, the shouts of criticism are louder than the voices of encouragement.
Every day. I wake up, I feel terrible, my body aches from an two year long injury, that affects my entire body. I wake up, and I do not want to move. I wake up, and I feel like the scum of the earth. I wake up. and I feel forsaken. and then, I lay there. unable to move. and I just lay there. and then....I start listening to my alarm. Which is K-Love. (Which just happens to be the only radio station that won't be static on my radio.) Every morning like clockwork my alarm goes off, and they're playing a song, that either touches my heart, makes me cry, or reminds me, that I'm not alone. And that. is the only reason I can move in the morning. Because I'm reminded that I'm not alone. God is with me, and I still have at least a tiny bit of love from a few people out there. which means. God actually loves me! cause if they can love me. the fallen, judgemental people of the world! If they can love me, genuinely love me. Then as sure as the sun comes up in the morning God can love me! (referenced: Unfathomable Love -October section -this blog) So every morning. I have some amount of hope...sort of...
A few weeks ago. I couldn't even think about even trying to believe that God loves me. That was out of the question. Because I felt more forsaken then I ever had in my life. I felt more useless, and more like a failure than I ever had in my life. I. Had. No. Worth. .... to myself. I was worthless to myself. I had no reason to believe that God, or anybody could love me. Because. my entire life, people have gotten to know me and ditched me. and it "happened" (sort of. it made me feel like they were ditching. we just have some fun boundaries....blech.) for I don't know the how-manyeth-time, in October.
But. then. a couple weeks ago, that friend said "hey, you wanna come to youth group with me and my sister?" so I said sure. And that's when God started to say "hey! I love you! I love you! I love you." That night when I was at youth-group with my friend, I bawled, almost the entire time! I couldn't believe that He loved me, and I had had such a hard time believing that, for so many years, that, when God said that. it was just like a 50 ton hug gets dropped on you! they are SO nice, but they're heavy too!
God was standing there. right next to me. the whole time I was hurting. He was there, my entire life, every time I was hurting, and every time when I wasn't too! He was there while I was hurting that terrible Friday night four years ago! God was sitting there with me when I was on the phone a Sunday night in January, three years ago, God was there, when someone I love, ditched me, in the most painful way they could have at the time. He. was. There. and He has been there, here, with me. with you. whoever is reading this! whoever is not reading this! He's been with you your entire life! saying to you "I love you! I love you so much I died for you! and I would do it again, in less than a heart beat!" Jesus is right there with you now! whether you're Christian or not! He. is THERE! right now with you! asking for you to come into His arms and pour out your troubles on Him! asking for you to lean on Him, to give your love, and your life to Him. So He can let you know, so He can show you, just. How. Much. He loves you!
two weeks ago now, my sister in law, was talking to me. I was sitting in an office bawling. again. And she was sitting there. trying to let me know that she loved me. And when I eventually told her that I don't feel like I'm worth anything, and that I don't feel like I can be loved. She ended up talking about how much I'm worth. not just to her but to other people. And. I started crying harder. That day I was struggling even more than usual to believe that God does love me. And God was knockin' on my door again saying. "Heloo, I leave you love notes? hmm?"
Over the past two weeks I've been getting better at believing that God really does love me and I'm not just a person He accidentally created without any thought. I've been able to start healing a little bit, and I've been able to press into God more.
Something my older sister said yesterday, was "God is a single-woman's husband".
I struggle with not being loved, and honestly, if I was asked if I wanted a husband or a child, I would have to say yes. I do. I want them. more than I can say. especially a child. But when she said that. I thought of something my friend had said. "stop wishing for something you don't have, and be content with what you do have" And I put the two together and I thought. "wow. my thinking has been a bit off in that aspect. I've been searching for agape love. where I can not find it. I have it right in front of my face! and I've been blind!" and so that was just like a smack in the face. But, when I realised that, I put Jesus in that place in my heart. And you know what. that night was the first night I have rested when I slept in over a month. There was a peace there that I have been searching for since I was nine, maybe eight....I can't remember! But it was there. And I woke up the next morning. And I felt Jesus there. I knew He was there. And I knew I was safe. At least from a few certain things. And that feeling is so amazing! I can't even describe it!
I would like to say thank you to K-love, and all the sponsorers of K-love. you guys got me up in the morning. and you guys kept me from sliding into complete depression.
I would also like to thank the youth pastor at EPIC. (the youth group) for praying for me.
1Kings 19:7
"And the angle of the Lord came back a second time and touched him, and said, 'Arise and eat, because the journey is too great for you.' "
Right now that is me! I'm collapsed in the middle of nowhere! And the journey, has been, and is too great for me. ...alone.
Revelation 21:4
"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."
This is Gods promise to me! This is something I hang onto! Eventually, I won't have to deal with my emotional pain! I won't have to deal with my physical pain! and I won't feel sad! and I won't want to cry!
I don't know about you, but. I want that!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
CHOIR!
Gospel Choir, is THE BEST choir EVER!!!!! we have fun, we laugh, we get work done (sometimes) we joke around, we DANCE!, we act, we all love each other, and we sound good!!!!! The coolest choir EVER!!!!!
^_^ I love choir!!!
^_^ I love choir!!!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Unfathomable Love
Most of us, don't realize how much we're loved!
Whether it's love from another person, love from God, or both!
I'm one of those people. I go through the day, and I have to remind myself, and prove to myself, all day, that God loves me! In-spite of every sin I do, in-spite of every time I fall short. God Loves Me. In John 3:16 it says: "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in Him, should not perish but have ever lasting life."
Now I don't know about you, but I've spent a lot of time thinking about this verse. Unable to believe that it applies to me! I've taken this verse apart so many times, and I stop dead when it says "He gave His Only begotten Son". Oh my word! Have you ever stopped to think about that! God, the creater of the universe! The creater of you! gave up His only Son, so that you could spend eternity with Him! Have you ever seen or expereiced a bran new daddy? Have you seen the look on their face? It is unexplainable! There is so much love and Joy, and that mans face! You know right then and there that that man would do anything to save this child from pain, or suffering. But God loved us so much, and He knew the only way for us to be saved from eternal death, was to give up His son. The one that He looked at and that unexplainable face flashed across His. He gave His ONLY son, so that we could spend eternity with Him! That just blows me away! I have a nephew, and even though He's not my child, I wouldn't put him through that! I mean it pains me just to punish him! I can't imagine how much pain God endured, so we could know His love! That, is just unfathomable to me! I can't beleive God would do that to save me! Alot of the time I think, "Well, He did that for everyone else, I wasn't on His mind when He made that decision, to give up His son." I have such a hard time beleiving that God loves me! personally, so whenever I think of that verse I've always come to this question. "God, if I were the only unsaved sinner left on this planet, would You come and die again, just for me"? Now, for me, to believe that God would do that for me....no. But when I look at other people, and see how much I love them, I'm reminded that God loves them infinity times the amount I do! and I can say without a doubt that God would do that for them! Because He loves them SO much. And I try to beleive that He would do that for me. Because I have friends, who love me! and they remind me, "God loves you so much more!"
I am so thankful for the people who love me! even though, I struggle to believe they love me. If I stop and think rationally about it. I can see that they love me. Even if it's just a teeny, tiny, bit. And God, loves me Infinity, times more!
Whether it's love from another person, love from God, or both!
I'm one of those people. I go through the day, and I have to remind myself, and prove to myself, all day, that God loves me! In-spite of every sin I do, in-spite of every time I fall short. God Loves Me. In John 3:16 it says: "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in Him, should not perish but have ever lasting life."
Now I don't know about you, but I've spent a lot of time thinking about this verse. Unable to believe that it applies to me! I've taken this verse apart so many times, and I stop dead when it says "He gave His Only begotten Son". Oh my word! Have you ever stopped to think about that! God, the creater of the universe! The creater of you! gave up His only Son, so that you could spend eternity with Him! Have you ever seen or expereiced a bran new daddy? Have you seen the look on their face? It is unexplainable! There is so much love and Joy, and that mans face! You know right then and there that that man would do anything to save this child from pain, or suffering. But God loved us so much, and He knew the only way for us to be saved from eternal death, was to give up His son. The one that He looked at and that unexplainable face flashed across His. He gave His ONLY son, so that we could spend eternity with Him! That just blows me away! I have a nephew, and even though He's not my child, I wouldn't put him through that! I mean it pains me just to punish him! I can't imagine how much pain God endured, so we could know His love! That, is just unfathomable to me! I can't beleive God would do that to save me! Alot of the time I think, "Well, He did that for everyone else, I wasn't on His mind when He made that decision, to give up His son." I have such a hard time beleiving that God loves me! personally, so whenever I think of that verse I've always come to this question. "God, if I were the only unsaved sinner left on this planet, would You come and die again, just for me"? Now, for me, to believe that God would do that for me....no. But when I look at other people, and see how much I love them, I'm reminded that God loves them infinity times the amount I do! and I can say without a doubt that God would do that for them! Because He loves them SO much. And I try to beleive that He would do that for me. Because I have friends, who love me! and they remind me, "God loves you so much more!"
I am so thankful for the people who love me! even though, I struggle to believe they love me. If I stop and think rationally about it. I can see that they love me. Even if it's just a teeny, tiny, bit. And God, loves me Infinity, times more!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
The Being Within
The sixth commandment says “THOU SHALT NOT KILL”. This means you may not touch any living being with the intention of doing them harm. You may not harm any living being with the intention of ending its life.
One of the biggest questions about abortion today is how long is the “thing” inside the woman a “fetus” before it becomes a baby. A few years ago, we did not have the technology to enable a baby five months early to live. However, now in the year 2011 there have been a few cases of babies with paper thin skin, and a body only slightly bigger than a dollar bill, survive a premature birth. Technology has allowed us to see that a “fetus” is alive and breathing after only a couple of months, maybe less, in the womb of a mother. Technology has also shown us that this “fetus” can live outside of the womb as an individual entity.
Genesis 1:27 says “God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him...”
God created human beings in the perfect image of Himself. God creates human beings in the womb of a mother, in the image of Himself. When we were created, we were created with innocence, an undying love for God, and the perfection of His image. Adam and Eve were innocent. They were without flaw, and without sin. They were perfect. When Adam and Eve ate the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, they became subject to sin. They were no longer innocent. They had an understanding of right and wrong, and were no longer perfect. Because of this, they could no longer be with God, for where sin is, God cannot be.
After eating the fruit, all humans were cast out of the Garden. Both man and woman walked out of the Garden in sorrow, now bearing the toils of sin, and the pain of understanding. Even though God cast us out of the Garden, we are still made in His image. We are still part of His reflection, though now marred with sin. However, a baby is His perfect reflection. A baby is innocent and does not know good from evil, just as we were when God created man.
Will you consider the life of the thing inside you? Will you think about the innocence you are about to dismember? Will you consider the consequence of the ending being inside you, and the dangers it brings to yourself, before you commit a murder and a double sin? If technology continues to progress in the way it has, I wonder just how long it will take for our society and government to see that “a person's a person, no matter how small”. (Dr. Suess)
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